Long Time No See

I don't spend enough time here anymore. Aside from being in this place, I don't really write at all anymore. I am probably too busy (doubtfully). In the past this has been a place I come to when I need to escape my reality. However I think my outlook on escaping my reality has changed. It's not good. You can't run from reality. You have to confront it.

It's good in concept but I still haven't figured out how to do it. Now I run by other means. It's been my curse for as long as I recall. It's the reason I am here now.

I missed this place, though I don't know that I'm really here. In the past I have written just to vent. I wrote about what I didn't understand in class or what I was going through with one girl or another. I think maybe my problems are too real to discuss here. There are things I'm not admitting to myself that I don't ever want to be true. And for now they're going to stay that way..

I like to think I got past the place where I just write to keep track of things or vent. I prefer to write now because I have something on my mind that is interesting. However maybe I still need that space to vent. I do it sometimes on twitter. It's always an ambiguous subtweet, usually about my girl or my job. When do things get to perfect? That's a laugh. I'm too old to think there is a divine destination.. That is unless I was still a Christian.

Anyway. I'm a work now. I'm 31. I have responsibilities that need taking care of. So I'll be back later.. Maybe..

Train vs. Menage

The Breakfast Club was talking about the difference between "running a train" and having a "ménage à trois" when two men are involved this morning. I was hoping they would post the video of the discussion on youtube but they didn't so I must post the response I came up with somewhere else. This is my blog so I can do what I want:

It's a train if the guys aren't doing anything with each other, just to the girl. It would only be a ménage if they did stuff with each other too. There is no word for girls running a train on a dude, but if two girls are performing on the dude and not each other, that's not a ménage either. Finally, if the dude is just watching two girls get it on but isn't doing stuff to both of them, technically that's not a ménage either.

The more you know..

th1rst

Shrooms

Bossy

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Ego

Some of me thinks you'll never fully appreciate all that I am and all that I can be.

And some of me thinks that all that I am and all that I can be really isn't that much..

For The Rest Of My Life (Rem-Mix)

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