First time professional collab

Dear Eventual Offspring..

I am going through a lot right now. I know what you're thinking.. Why aren't you here by now? You should be. I wish you were. What I really mean to say is that I wish I were stable and responsible enough for you to be here and be comfortable. My internal struggle has turned out to be worse than I could have imagined. I realized recently that it all boils down to confidence. I don't truly believe I'm capable of achieving a life with you in it. That tears me up inside because it's almost all I could ever want. There's so many lessons I feel like I could teach you.. Except this one. How do you get up when you've fallen so hard? I can't say that I've been trying as hard as I can, and I sincerely apologize to you for that. Maybe if I were, I'd be holding you right now, rather than writing you a letter. It saddens me even more because family and friends are all having kids these days (congratulations to new mommies and daddies), and these kids could be potential playmates.. But since I'm not ready, you're going to have to look forward to the next generation of kids.. The little brothers and sisters of these new babies. I haven't given up on you though. That's why I'm writing you this letter.. Because I expect to give it to you one day so you can know that I love you more than anything before you even exist.. And I'm going to try harder.. because I may not quite feel like I can support you, I am certainly ready to meet you.

Love,
Daddy

Why I Love The Present

The video above has been one of significant discussion in the past couple weeks. Ultimately it was a semi-harmless event that many people feel THEY wouldn't have put on the internet for all to see. I personally appreciate the gesture like no other. First and foremost, I appreciate the laugh. It's pretty cool in this day and age to be able to connect with strangers and their random humorous events. Beyond that, I appreciate the kinds of things it can inspire..



Pretty much EVERYONE has heard the Bed Intruder Song and possibly has seen the video that inspired it. The above video is the same thing, and in fact was done by the same people. Their YouTube channel is http://www.youtube.com/schmoyoho. They are very talented in music in various ways, being able to make music out of anything and they can sing and play instruments pretty well also. I LOVE THIS SONG! It's ridiculously adorable and has a great sound. Now here's where it hits home for me..



I've been trying for some time to get some attention on YouTube. The Mommy & Daddy Song gave me an opportunity. When they did the Bed Intruder Song, they welcomed people to do their own personal covers of the song that they would link in the video or approve as a video response, getting views for all kinds of people with various talents trying to gain some attention on YouTube. Within 5 hours of seeing the video, the above was what I came up with. It's a simple dance for anyone who enjoys this song and would like to dance along. Anywho, you can imagine my excitement when I noticed that Schmoyoho linked my video under Covers at the end of theirs with a little "dance along" caption.. Funny thing is, dancing isn't the talent I'm trying to gain attention for on YouTube.. but what can I say, the song made me wanna dance ;) So I moved on to the next step..



The above video is another cover someone else did.. One of the earlier ones. I thought it had a nice sound. I thought to myself that I'd like to do my own cover, but I don't play any instruments and I couldn't imagine trying to sing the original song. I rap.. So I took the above cover and used it as an instrumental for my own little Hip Hop Remix of the original Mommy & Daddy Song.



The above video is where I shine. If you knew anything about me before these videos, you'd know I am a lyricist. I write rhymes and deliver them in various ways, as seen on MY YouTube channel, http://www.youtube.com.RemTheMulatto. Now I don't usually sing, but I was inspired. And like it or not, both of my above videos are getting more YouTube traffic than I could have imagined. My second one started getting more hits after I decided to link it in my original dance video, and Schmoyoho *liked* it.

The thing that trips me out the most about all of this is that if I weren't up several nights ago checking out my subscriptions, I may not be getting all of this attention. And furthermore, if Schmoyoho hadn't generously linked my vid or approved my vid responses, I'd be getting no views.. So the moral is, opportunities are everywhere.. Don't doubt where you can find an opportunity because you may be surprised.

5 Words..

This blog post asks the question, what 5 words define your life?

These are my five words:

sentimental creative narcissistic goof-ball mulatto

The author of the post talks about order being significant, therefore I tried to put my words in a significant order as well. The first four words are entirely internal. I stress how "mulatto" I am, but the primary source of my mulatto-ness is what people see.

I spend a lot of time in my own mind.. I appreciate black and white photos, asymmetrical landscapes, cloud formations, song lyrics, and other sensitive poetic bullsh*t. I try to focus on sentimental things rather than the harsh realities.

Everything I have ever been has always surrounded wanting to create. I used to draw. I come up with book, movie, and video game ideas regularly that I keep in a notebook. I write lyrics. I have older blogs where I've written things like stories, poems, analyses, and opinions. When it's gift time, I tend to make things rather than buy things.

For as long as I can remember I have longed for people to appreciate me. This stems into a desire for fame and constant attention. I was once told that it's not narcissism, at least in no extreme form, but that's how I have always perceived it because a large part of me cannot conceive why other people don't appreciate the things I do and am capable of.. And no amount of praise seems to quench my thirst. This is my curse.

I come off as quiet and withdrawn. Once I become comfortable around people, goofiness emerges from the silence. In fact, because I am most comfortable by myself or when I write, much of that silliness can be seen in my YouTube videos and my blogs.

I was born from a black man and a white woman. In addition, I grew up predominantly around black people. I typically speak like an individual of black decent with some, but not a great deal, of education. However, I went to high school and college with mostly white kids. Though my speech tells a different story, my grammar and spelling are very good. I've was born and have lived in both worlds, and they both have a large influence on me. I feel like an outcast and like I fit in anywhere simultaneously. From that has stemmed the idea that there are two sides to everything I do.. Two perspectives. Thus, I am mulatto in the physical and various metaphorical senses of the word.

The Game Need Change, I'm Hip Hop Barack Obama!

I'm back!! Did you miss me? Who the hell am I talking to.. there's nobody here. Anywho, this is what I've been up to:



Lyrics: (potential ad libs and alt lyrics in parentheses)

The year is 2010. Recession is in effect... Success is in the distance... Rem is goin in

People... that I knew
From way back when
Well They don't remember Rem
But then again back then

I wasn't Rem... (the mulatto!)
I was Jeremy (who?)
(Apparently) barely
Present in a room
I wasn't tryna share me (sometimes people scare me)

Meanin that I kept
Me to myself
I liked to be by myself
I didn't need no help (the lonely loner)
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So far disconnected
From High school me
If I knew me
I might fool me

That aint true, but truly
I wish I was a new me
I tried to do new
But I could only ever do me... (who me?)

Dig?...
To anyone who... knew me
But never met the true me (If I seemed kinda gloomy)(rude me)
I apologize

A thousand times And I'm truly (im sorry!)
Sorry that I never
let the fun me run free
...There's only

one me... (the yin and the yang)
And I'm the little, the lot (echo)
The cold, the hot
The wrong, the right9

The black, the white
The old and the youthful
I'm just bein' truthful
I don't live a soap opera

But I'm bold and I'm beautiful (I'm young and I'm restless)

(echo)
I just wanted you to know

We only live once...
I got the power to shape things
What reason do I got, man,
to not chase dreams (RIP MLK)

I'ma be successful,
I put that on my momma
The game need change,
I'm Hip Hop Barack Obama

They say things like
What if you never see the green light?
I'm patient in traffic
Cuz a jam aint what it seems like

We might be movin' slow
but that's time for me to grow
I'ma be somethin fierce
when it's time for me to go (scrrr! vrrooom!)

(speechin)
Eminem told me to lose myself when my moment arrives...
I expect to find myself...

Now...I just wanna be... (successful)(sing?)
But I'm sick and tired
Of people makin fun of me
Right in front of me

Like I'm bein' comedic (ha!)
But I aint doin' nothin funnily
...Yeah, that's a word
But I don't give a fuck, ya see

I'm not some kinda wanna be
As if I'm never gonna be
Sheeit, I am the shit and
Aint nobody flushin' me (super mario ass...)

...Not even a plumber
Maybe you don't wanna see
Why don't u leave that to Stevie
And I'm still Wondering

What other things to discourage
To take away my pourage (I'ma beast!)
These goldie locks suckas
Tryna get under my dermis

Like a surgeon witta scalpel
Got them PhDs (hater degrees)
Theses nurses do it too,
Call em She Hate Mes

Just remember my name
When u hatin' on high
I am R-E-M,
and sometimes Y

Time spent kickin haters
Make my rhymes a lil sicker (cough cough)
When my rhymes get sicker
And my lines get slicker

My dimes get thicker (nickels?)
My fine gets bigger (quarters!)
And most importantly
These haters minds get blisters (hating hurts...)

....
Success (yes!)
I expect nothin less,
Till the beat comes the rest

In these speakers and my chest
Believe it or contest
I don't need to be the best
Just relief from the stress

From the worst financial crisis that we had since the

Depression (The Great one)
And my city got the worst of it, I'm bout to be a Texan...

(Cowboy hat and all)

Hello Houston, and what up Austin
Sayin' bye to Detroit, but I'll comeback often

//16 more (28 so far)

Don't think that you lost Rem, I just need money (ching

ching)
Cash make ya shine, and the lone star is sunny

And the city formerly known for motors and stuff (vroom)
Is covered in clouds... in fact it always was... (thunder)

But Rem loves ya baby and I'll be back soon
Gotta chase my dreams, even if it takes me to the moon

I heard it's made of cheese...Exactly what I need
But I read in a book that said it's really hard to breathe

(inhale) //(breathe in)
(exhale) //(breathe out)

(clear for take off) get the space ship ready
Takin' no prisoners, get the grave shift ready

And I'm fueled off yo fury, keep that hate shit heavy
I'm yo new found addiction and I'm laced with sexy

Want the money cars clothes, so I can make a better life
I don't need that other thing, I already gotta wife (no hoes)

I'm already twenty five, and hoes is parasites
Especially if you don't strap up that latex twice

Little mes on the prowl and she callin fuh her cut
That aint worth it, man... just to buss a nut? //(spoik)

I tell u what it makes me chuckle, I'd rather bust a gut (ha ha!)
Laughin' at u youngins cuz u give such a fuck //(wtf)

If I get a 100 problems... cuz I don't got enough (a bitch is 100) 
Cut that bitch wit a Kspoon... like WTF

I closed my black album which holds my pimp chronicles
I'm feelin' this beat... it's so hypnotical (don't u agree?)
(Im floatin on this beat, u can call my rhymes nautical)

My lyrics, psychological, I reach into your mind
Make it a necessity... u gotta press rewind

Alternative Dreams

I woke up this morning with music in my head. To my surprise, it wasn't hip hop... It was alternative... Interesting.

Corinne Bailey Rae - I'd Do It All Again